Former striker Dave Kitson has opened up about his feelings following the tragic death of Welsh football legend Gary Speed in 2011. Speed, who was both a celebrated player and manager, took his own life and left a significant void in the world of football. Kitson, known to many as The Secret Footballer, shared his regret over not speaking out sooner about mental health issues in the sport.
Speed’s passing came just days after Kitson wrote about the silent mental health crisis in football, predicting heartbreakingly that it could lead to someone taking their own life. The revelation gave Kitson’s work a new weight, turning what started as a candid insight into the darker realities of football into something much more.
“Back then, nobody talked about mental health; it was considered a sign of weakness,” Kitson revealed. He explained how Speed’s death urged him to reflect on the industry’s culture, driving him to become an advocate for mental health awareness in sports. “It changed my writing and my life,” he admitted.
Things are looking brighter today, with clubs integrating mental health support, but Kitson stresses the importance of creating environments where players feel safe to seek help. “We’re getting better,” he says, noting the improvements in support systems within the FA and PFA.
Kitson also discussed the pressures of being The Secret Footballer, a role that provided an outlet for his frustrations but also came with anxiety and fear of being exposed. Despite this, he recognises the impact of his work on the sport’s culture and is proud of the change it spurred.
Let’s continue the conversation about mental health in sports and remember Gary Speed, whose legacy inspires change. If you or someone you know is struggling, reach out to Samaritans at 116 123 or via email at jo@samaritans.org.